"The Five of Wands in this position encourages you to find your natural ambition. Identify what energizes you, what you would fight for and what you are passionate about -- even when you're tired or discouraged. Strive to make that the centerpiece of your mission.
This is how you find right livelihood. This is how you finally establish your path of service."
I get this almost every time. Besides that, I know it's what I need to do. It's harder than hard though. If I tired to sum it up it would be freedom in all it's terrifying forms, artistic and otherwise. How do you make that your path of service? I'll keep mulling it over I guess.
*edit*
And the answer was forthcoming:
"When the Two of Coins is in this position, you are bound to exist in a state of uncertainty for a while. If you do not prepare for it psychologically, it can make you feel crazy. One thing is for sure -- you will find out whether you have the patience and perseverance to make it through dry spells without losing sight of your goals.
These are times that try the soul -- times when you are not in charge, times when you are at the mercy of forces that move at a slower pace than you would like. Continue to undertake tasks that you know you can accomplish, so you can experience some relief from uncertainty. Stamina will get you through this period. Be forewarned; perseverance does get you further, but it isn't always easy."
