Seems like I'm back on the upswing, but I'm promising myself right now not to give a shit either way about it. I have to. I let myself get carried away and then its down to decoding gestures and interpreting the spaces between words. Trying to force out meanings and connections that aren't there and fooling myself with inflated fantasies that snap back on themselves and make me feel like I've actually lost something when nothing happens.
Maybe I've just been up too long and need sleep.
