God I am exhausted today. I did a whole bunch of manual labor for my mother. I also went grocery shopping and cleaned the house...I've been a good doobie :)
It hurts though, and I know it will hurt more tommorow. The hell with it though, I'm giving myself the day off. I'm going to sleep all day, maybe go to the beach, maybe just watch TV. I am also going to pray to the gods of niceness that *SOMEONE* decides to get me some damn pot. Oh pleeeeeese! Whats a couple of days off without some help relaxing?
Oh well, it will get here when it gets here...stressing won't help. But the fridge is full of tasty foods hehe. Damn temptations.
I guess I should go to sleep. I keep having dreams where I kiss Jon. I can remember the sweet taste of them...how electric and warm they were. I long to do it again. But I don't know. I know he is interested, but I don't know why he won't act. Possibly because of his girlfriend, possibly because he's afraid it'll fuck everything up. Whatever...the idea is kinda fun in and of itself.
That night a couple of weeks ago when he bear and I stayed up until all hours of the night lying here in my bed talking and being close and looking at porn was severly exiting. He bit me a couple of times, and bear was being overtly sexual. Nothing happened though. Kinda disapointing, but hey...I did flash him my ass at least ;)
Oh well, off to sweet dreams and achy mornings!
