I feel like an asshole, but I've never had a life's dream. I'm reading a book that's supposed to tell you how to find out from yourself. I'm exceptional sceptical, but I figure at this point I need to find my own direction. If I knew where it was I wanted to be going, I think I could step up and redesign my life. I have a sneaking suspicion that when I find out what I want from my life it won't include JC, and maybe, just maybe I can use that as my motivation.
Thats what I'm hoping anyway.
